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New Year Post

31 Dec

It’s a little after 11am11pm (that is how tired I am) here in Cali.
I am laying in bed. I can hear the neighbors partying next door. I can also hear the sounds of ambulance and police sirens. The world is being crazy and I am about to read a book.
#nerdmoments

Since people like to reflect and think about their goals for the coming year, I suppose I will list mine.
In 2013, I want to do the following:

Get my own place
Run the LA Marathon
Finish New Rules of Lifting for Women
Transfer to a better college
Work on loving myself and cutting out the negative self-talk
Decrease my crazy amounts of stress
Read more!
Write more!
Eat a whole lot cleaner!!

I truly believe this list is doable.
I have come a long way and I know I am capable of going even further.
I have a gut feeling 2013 will be my year!

On another note, 2012 was a hard year for me. I did come a long way, but I fell into a deep hole. After losing a job I loved in Dec of 2011, I became quite sad. About 2 months later, my great grandmother passed on. I found myself in a horribly dark place. I hit a rock bottom that I did not know I could reach. I was having family issues, felt like I had no friends or support around me, and I tried to ease my pain with food and television. Slowly, I came around. I thought of my beloved Great Gram watching over me. I’d imagine how pissed off she’d be at the sight of me laying in bed eating peanut butter from the jar. She always believed in me. I decided I would get my shit together for her. By July, I was functioning again like a regular person. I was running, eating right, looking for a job, and back in school. I was even trying to reach out to some friends and attempt to re-build relationships. I suffered an injury early August. It was hard to not let one slip-up make me fall right back into my sad funk. I started lifting. I started reading again. I was maintaining my positive attitude.
I’m proud to say I have had my ups and downs this year but I managed to come back in a big way. This is the happiest I can remember being in a while. Sure, there are days that my anxiety and stress problems get the best of me. There are nights that I cannot sleep through, but I am not giving up anymore.
I would not care to repeat 2012 over, but I did catch a glimpse of just how strong I really am.

Happy New Year y’all!

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